In this project, I aim to evoke the perception of a kid. This kid is my subpersonality — a younger version of me, my past self, my inner boy who still lives within me. He is far more curious, attentive, and courageous than my adult self. With his help, I am learning to rediscover the ordinary things around me and to admire the small details once again.
I remember my childhood well. I remember how I could spend hours staring at the ceiling in my grandmother's house, studying its patterns and marks. As a child, every object had a unique texture that I would notice. But as I grew older, it felt as if I stopped truly looking at things — I became content with just seeing them. It felt like reading a book diagonally, rather than immersing myself in its details.
To shift my perspective, I turned to the popular idea of internal parts. I called upon my inner boy — the part of me that I felt has always been with me. Oh, he is an incredibly inspiring character! And he insists that we don't confuse him with the inner child, if possible.
This boy is still capable of finding joy in a piece of chocolate or enjoying a silly TV show. He can be quite rebellious, breaking the rules without a second thought. He admires things simply because he truly looks at them. He constantly tells me, 'Hey, take a closer look, pay attention!' Thanks to him, I’ve regained the perceptive strength I had long missed. Though I often hide him behind the bars of rationality, I’m deeply grateful that he is still with me.
